Christmas Eve and I'm spending a quiet evening in front of the tree. Although a few crafts were produced, for the most part this has been a rather non materialistic celebration. In part this stems from our upcoming family trip to Tampa next month, the addition of two grandchildren to be festive with and most importantly our combined relief at being able to celebrate with improved health. Nothing like a tussle with cancer to reorder your priorities.
Yesterday I finished my final chemotherapy - yeehaw six cycles down - and the six year old grandson who had patiently waited with his grandfather in the waiting room rang the bell for me after asking "why do they call it treatments if they don't give you a treat?" Almost surreal to think that it's over as it's been the focus of my life for months now. This past week has been celebratory with the countdown advent calendar, an early morning visit from one of my sister-in-laws who brought wine and snacks and announced "I just came to tell you how proud I am of you, you made it through!", multiple messages from friends and family near and far and a champagne toast Thursday evening in anticipation.
Saw the surgeon at my clinic visit last week and will have my first three monthly checkup in March. When I asked Dr Grimshaw about returning to work, I explained that the shore captain had sold his business and was supposedly retired (more on that later) due in part to my illness so was not too keen on my working and he congratulated my other half and said "that's wonderful, she probably saved your life!" and repeated it firmly when mister chuckled as if it was a joke. Permission for return to work was granted and I had my GP fill in the forms for my employer as he agreed to a month in May to try it on. Who knows if I will really enjoy it as much as I think I will? Maybe I won't continue but…no way to tell that from here, gotta try it on to find out. I am SO looking forward to doing that. Have convinced the shore captain to accompany me (as my employer would've paid for him to travel in and out every rotation actually) but now he has time so will plan to come in goose hunting for a few weeks. As you can see, there won't be a problem with finding geese to hunt:
Our trip of last week involved a stop at the Souls Harbour RESCUE Mission to drop off filled stockings for homeless folks, some more crocheted hats and a warm jacket donated by a neighbour. Truly felt the spirit of the season move me as I handed over the armfuls of donations. Will have to get my crochet hook going and whip up more hats as the winter continues. We visited with a long term friend who was in hospital awaiting surgery and it was nice to have the time together as I have become quite the expert on 'how to be a patient' this past year. A trip across the bridge to visit with our three month old granddaughter who was lying under the tree as she thinks the tree lights are a wonderful invention. I had crocheted her a snowman hat but one of the hazards of not having your model in house is….it was waaayyyy too big and will fit her next year. Seems to me that I've made that mistake before….I did do another version which actually fit when she came to stay for a few days and I was able to try it on her as I created it. Much colder last week and a buddy commented about being glad to not be a brass monkey and we agreed as we enjoyed a lovely supper at La Frasca (a great Italian restaurant on Spring Garden Road) and then trotted out briskly in the cold night air back to the Lord Nelson to collapse for the night.
and supper delivered to my now post op friend who lives nearby. Glad to see that she's recovering nicely and heading on to the next phase of the journey in her usual style. Back to spend the evening enjoying some charcuterie and wine then seafood chowder and biscuits, topped off with lemon tarts. Ahhh. We opened our modest presents to each other and generally enjoyed ourselves. The nurse daughter is working 24, 25, 26 and 27 so this was her major Christmas celebration. My nurse friend (who hadn't seen the baby since she was a newborn) dropped by for a visit and we caught up on the news. I had given our grandson an audio book of birdsongs and he was tutored in Australian fowl by my Aussie nurse friend (Canadian now for 30 yrs) and as she readied for home he asked her if she'd be home by tonight on her flight. We explained she lived across the bridge, not in Australia now. Since this is on his 'to visit' list including Africa and Chinese he took a keen interest. Cute! Crawled into our beds and slept like logs after all those festivities.
The wonder of Christmas through the eyes of a child who still believes in Santa is enjoyment we've not experienced for some years and have forgotten how much fun it was…I put the reindeer cam on for our grandson. This is a webcam from the Shubenacadie Wildlife Park where one of the employees wears a Santa suit and feeds the reindeer grain and carrots at 9am and 3pm. "Santa waved at me" he said as he wove back and I said "Santa is watching you" and he solemnly agreed that "Santa watches EVERYONE". When I tried to get him settled for bed that evening he said "sometimes my eyes don't want to let me sleep Nanuk" but we agreed that he should try and less than two minutes later he was out for the count.
Although the shore captain had promised to only spend three weeks in the transition after selling the business these have been long weeks He joked that he slowed down to 80 hr weeks and that's not far off. Leaving before dawn, back long after dark and putting in almost a full day on weekends is not what retired people do for fun I've advised him. The 'new' plan is that after the holidays he will move his files etc to his man cave and not visit the plant on a daily basis. I understand this is tough for him as he was seriously addicted to work and had no plan as to what he'd do if not keeping that pace but….it soon has to fall into place…or else! Getting up in the morning and heading to the plant before 7 am (or earlier) every day of the week and no plan? Of course you can see there'd be issues with this can't you? However, mister did not so this has been a steep learning curve for him. Sigh.
Guess the only solution for the above mentioned 'retirement blues' is to travel then. We'll be doing a pretty good job of it then this winter when the tally is two weeks in Tampa in January/February with the family, two weeks in Curacao snorkelling with just the ole fella and me (to replace the cancelled DR vacation) in February/March, a month in Cuba in April to see the oldest daughter marry her Cuban boyfriend. Away two of the four months….yeah we can handle that.
Today we had a short visit with the prodigal son and girlfriend before they left for supper with her family and will not have them for Christmas dinner as he plans to head out lobstering tomorrow evening. The boy captain has done well, catching as many lobsters in one day (9000 lbs) as entire seasons when his father was on the water. I whipped up a batch of red river cereal bread, pear tart, cranberry pudding and mincemeat pie and we enjoyed a charcuterie board of our own choosing for supper. Started sprouts in the sprouter I purchased (Merry Christmas to me) as I'm practicing for north - gotta get my greens. Oh yes, we are eating well.
So, for all of you who have sent lovely messages of encouragement or Christmas cards and not received a word from me….my apologies. I've been so wrapped up in this crazy schedule of appointments etc. that I've not had time for the smaller pleasures in life. Just wanted you all to know how much the support and positive energy, prayers etc. continue to mean to me. My hair has regrown quickly and it's a kinky salt and pepper now that is not as soft as my original but….will be okay without a wig by the time we leave for vacation. My fingernails are chipped and discoloured but a manicure takes care of that. So now if you'll excuse me I'll get on with my job at present which is becoming completely well. I leave you with a playlist for survivors:
Everything Will be OK Playlist
- "Float On," Modest Mouse
- "Be OK," Ingrid Michaelson
- "Don't Stop," Fleetwood Mac
- "The Middle," Jimmy Eat World
- "Let Go," Frou Frou
- "You Can't Always Get What You Want," The Rolling Stones
- "Trouble," TV on the Radio
- "Here Comes the Sun," Nina Simone
- "Somewhere Over the Rainbow," The Ukulele Boys
- "Everything Is Alright," Motion City Soundtrack
- "Odds Are," Barenaked Ladies
- "Hold On," Tom Waits
- "This Too Shall Pass," OK Go
- "All Will Be Well," The Gabe Dixon Band
- "I Can See Clearly Now," Johnny Nash
- "More Adventurous," Rilo Kiley
- "Better Things," Passion Pit
- "A Better Place, a Better Time," Streetlight Manifesto
- "Safe and Sound," Capital Cities
- "If I Ever Leave This World Alive," Flogging Molly
- "Lullaby," Shawn Mullins
- "It's Gonna Be (Alright)", Ween
- "Sunshine," Atmosphere
- "Everything'll Be Alright," Joshua Radin
- "Swim," Jack's Mannequin
- "Lovely Day," Bill Withers
- "Everything Will Be Alright," The Killers
- "Gravity Rides Everything," Modest Mouse
- "Pompeii," Bastille
- "Dry the Rain," The Beta Band
- "Good Vibrations," The Beach Boys
- "Mr. Blue Sky," Electric Light Orchestra
- "Fresh Feeling," Eels
- "Everything's Not Lost," Coldplay
- "This Year," The Mountain Goats
- "Rainbows in the Dark," Tilly and the Wall
- "Coney Island Baby," Lou Reed
- "One Day Like This," Elbow
- "Tomorrow Will Be Kinder," The Secret Sisters
- "Don't Worry Be Happy," Bobby McFerrin
- "No Woman No Cry," Bob Marley
- "Do You Realize??," The Flaming Lips
- "I'll Be Alright," Passion Pit
- "Let It Be," Carol Woods, Timothy T. Mitchum
- "It Gets Better," fun.
- "Ooh Child (Things Are Gonna Get Easier)", Life of the Party
- "I Shall Be Released," Bob Dylan
- "Happy Days Are Here Again/Get Happy," Glee Cast
- "Island in the Sun," Weezer
- "New Slang," The Shins
- "Perfect Day," Lou Reed
- "Grapevine Fires," Death Cab For Cutie
- "A Change Is Gonna Come," Sam Cooke
- "Sunny Afternoon," The Kinks
- "Why Worry?," Dire Straits
- "Three Little Birds," Bob Marley
- "Tomorrow Is Gonna Be Better," Josh Radin
- "Blue Sky," The Allman Brothers Band
- "L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.," Noah and the Whale
- "I Will Survive," Gloria Gaynor
- "What a Wonderful World," Louis Armstrong